Thursday, March 31, 2011

Writer's block (clog)

2nd Blog
Writer's block already.
Ya know, I have tons of things I want to write brain is flooded, so maybe writer's block isn't the right word, maybe it's more like writer's clog...

Maybe it's due to this perimenopause thing I seem to be going through.
Let's examine the symptoms...

1.     Hot flashes, flushes, night sweats and/or cold flashes, clammy feeling (see note
 I spent the majority of my life cold, so the hot flash thing is new.  I spend quite a bit of time asking everyone around me if it's hot, or is it just me...they all humor me and say well, it is KIND of warm....I'd rather just know I'm flashing instead of being in a perpetual state of wondering....
2.     Irregular heart beat 
 I think so.
3.     Irritability 
 Oh...well, just ask the Man, the Children and the Dog.
4.     Mood swings, sudden tears 
 I think it is safe to say that I swing so hard and so fast that the only answer I can safely give to any question is Maybe.
5.     Trouble sleeping through the night (with or without night sweats) 
 Yes, I've taken to drinking wine and taking Advil PM...I know my liver may shut down instantaneously, but at this point I don't really give a shit.
6.     Irregular periods; shorter, lighter periods; heavier periods, flooding; phantom periods, shorter cycles, longer cycles 
 I'll spare you the details but yes, although I really have no idea what a phantom period is, but I'm sure I've been having them. I'm not even kidding.
7.     Loss of libido (see note
 No Comment
8.     Dry vagina (see note
9.     Crashing fatigue 
 Is there any other kind?
10.  Anxiety, feeling ill at ease 
 I'm pretty sure I'd be eating Xanax like candy if I had insurance and could afford to go to the doctor.
11.  Feelings of dread, apprehension, doom (see note
Hence the craving for alcohol and pills....
12.  Difficulty concentrating, disorientation, mental confusion
 I suspect this is a huge problem but I'm not really sure...wait, what?
13.  Disturbing memory lapses 
 I can't remember where I parked the car, or why the hell I went to the store for that matter....I actually was going to cite a specific instance here of recent memory lapse, but, you guessed it, I forgot what it was.
14.  Incontinence, especially upon sneezing, laughing; urge incontinence (see note
 If I tell you I'll have to kill you.
15.  Itchy, crawly skin (see note
 As a matter of fact, YES, and this one surprised me that it appeared on this list, I merely thought I was hallucinating or experiencing some side effects to my self-medication.
16.  Aching, sore joints, muscles and tendons (see note
17.  Increased tension in muscles 
 Hence the aching, sore joints,muscles and tendons I'm sure.
18.  Breast tenderness 
 I'm about to resort to duct tape.  A bra is too painful, no bra is worse and if the Man even looks at them....well....yeah. buh-bye.
19.  Headache change: increase or decrease 
 I experience a steady increase and decrease in headaches.
20.  Gastrointestinal distress, indigestion, flatulence, gas pain, nausea 
 Wait, is this new?
21.  Sudden bouts of bloat 
 Ummmm...... sure. ?
22.  Depression (see note
 Well just look at all of the above symptoms, wouldn't YOU be depressed?
23.  Exacerbation of existing conditions 
24.  Increase in allergies 
 Yes! How did you know?
25.  Weight gain (see note
26.  Hair loss or thinning, head, pubic, or whole body; increase in facial hair 
 Fortunately my hair is not moving from my head or pelvis onto my face...yet.
27.  Dizziness, light-headedness, episodes of loss of balance
 Indeed.  I've always been rather graceful but this past year, let's just say I can no longer claim that I've never eaten shit in public.
28.  Changes in body odor
 Nobody is daring enough to confirm or deny this to my face.
29.  Electric shock sensation under the skin and in the head (see note
 YES...again, I just thought I was going crazy or that it was some weird side effect from the wine/Advil pm combo....
30.  Tingling in the extremities (see note
 Yes, but I thought I was playing too much Frontierville on Facebook.
31.  Gum problems, increased bleeding 
 not thus far.
32.  Burning tongue, burning roof of mouth, bad taste in mouth, change in breath odor 
 K, I know this doesn't even sound real, but I didn't make up this list and I HAVE been experiencing this....
33.  Osteoporosis (after several years) 
 Well, this remains to be seen. If I get any shorter I won't be able to ride the amusement park rides and that will seriously piss me off!
34.  Changes in fingernails: softer, crack or break easier 
 Not sure, I've had falsies for so long there may not be any actual fingernails left underneath them.
35.  Tinnitus: ringing in ears, bells, 'whooshing,' buzzing etc. (see note
 Either that or I'm going deaf.....
So, there you have it.  Doesn't this sound pleasant?  Aren't you jealous? 
This is what is wrong with me. In case you were wondering.  Be warned, however, just because you may know what is going on, you are NOT excused to dismiss any and/or all of my moods/feelings/aches/pains or complaints as not being real or important...
Oh, and I forgot to tell you the good news...this could last for 8 to 10 YEARS!!! Woot Woot! 

So, Cheers! My advice is buy stock in Wine and Advil...I should keep them in steady business for another decade or so...

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Do I have enough personality for this?

Well, hello people (person is more likely) whoever you are... If you're reading this then, thanks. :)
I feel pretty audacious for starting a blog. However, I have been advised by several (3 to be exact) people that this is something I "need" to be doing, and, after reading a most entertaining blog by a friend, I decided it's time.

I think we all have invaluable experiences and more often than not, there is humor-a-plenty in the things that we encounter.  I, for one, find life to be extremely and ironically funny and really love to share that with people.  My biggest concern in writing this blog is that you won't be able to see my amazing hand-gestures that accompany every story. I mean, really, a story without animation is nothing more than, well, a book.  Oh, right.  I guess it could work.....people read books, right?

Ok, another thing you should know is that I take life seriously in that I believe it does actually mean something, and someday everything we've gone through WILL matter.  Therefore I am compelled to share these things in order to band us together so we can help each other.  (all for one and one for all, hoorah!)

I am hoping I will keep writing this blog from my personal perspective, though I have many causes and in all likelihood there will be many soapbox sermons.  Hmmm...maybe that's what I should have called this blog...anyway, there will be swearing, sharing, caring, advocating, educating and praying.  (Yes I drink/swear/and commit many other forms of sinnery* AND believe in God.  I don't think He cares as much about some of that stuff as many of you think).

The whole point is this, Life is just Life and Love IS the answer.

*it's my blog and I can make up words if I want to. Don't judge.